Since reading it over a week ago, I can’t let it go. Its words haunt me. They remind me how tragically broken our world continues to be. Last week, Shawn McCreesh wrote an essay, remembering his very first friend, David. Growing up, Shawn and David’s families had been so close that they each called the other cousin, and each other’s moms aunt. Shawn had last talked with David last fall. He called because he was writing an article about growing up in Hatboro, Pennsylvania, and how drugs had played so powerfully into their youth.
Now, when Shawn and David talked, it looked as if his
friend, David had conquered his own problems with drugs. He had almost two years of sobriety. He had a wife and family with two young kids. He had built a solid career as a lead
technician for a HVAC company. But even
he knew how easily he could fall. David
put it to Shawn this way: “You cross the line, and you never know when or where
it is. It’s cunning, and it’s baffling, but once you’re over that line, it’s a
battle between you and you. You have to defeat yourself if you want to get out
of it and not die. It’s almost good versus evil in your brain.”
And three days before Thanksgiving, Shawn learned that
evil had won. David, his oldest friend, had been found,
slumped against a tree in the neighborhood where they had both grown up,
another overdose. His wife had become a
widow. His children would grow up
without their dad. His parents would
carry a profound wound in their hearts for the rest of their lives. And Shawn McCreesh had lost his oldest
friend.
Shawn went home to mourn with David’s mom, or as he
called her, his Aunt Tammy. As they
gathered in the small family kitchen with other mourners, he realized that,
just in that kitchen, five moms were standing there who had lost their children
in the same way.
And as I read the story, how the pastor who led the
service was a recovering addict himself, I wondered. What did that pastor say about where David
was? After all, by David’s own admission, evil had
won. He had chosen a drug over his wife,
over his own children, over his friends and family. How much more lost can you be than that?
And if the traditional Christian understanding of hell
were true, David’s torment in life could very well now be continuing forever in
the agonies of hell. But what if
David’s journeying to hell could be the best news forever? What if, only through that journey, could God
free him for the joy of heaven. What if
only hell could provide the healing that did not come this side of heaven? How can hell give you the freedom to finally choose
what you most deeply wanted your entire life but for all sorts of tragic
reasons you didn’t? In these words from
Jesus, God shows you the way, let’s listen and hear what God has to say.
Last week, I began sharing an understanding of hell
that was commonly held among many Christians during the first five centuries of
Christian faith. These Christians, based
on their reading of scripture like this one from I Corinthians: “for as all die
in Adam, so all will be made alive in Christ.” had concluded. Hell could not be forever. They proclaimed. In the ultimate end of all
things, God will bring everyone home. All will be made alive in Christ. But hold on a second.
What if everyone doesn’t want to go home? What if folks want to stay in Hell? Is God going to force them into heaven, no
matter what they want? Don’t we have
freedom to choose? And here Jesus gives
you a stunning answer. Jesus tells
you. The only true freedom comes when a
person finds the freedom to choose God. And here’s the problem. No one, no one this side of heaven, is completely
free.
Think about it.
Does anyone believe that Shawn’s oldest friend, David, was completely
free? Would any person, in their right
mind, leave behind the wife and sons they love, their own parents, their
friends for a chemical high? Yet,
that’s exactly what David did. No one
pushed the drug into his veins. No one
even gave it to him for free. At some
point, he went and looked for it. He
used his own money to buy it. Then he
carefully prepared it, knowing in doing so, he was risking everything for the
sake of a few hours of fleeting and false escape. And yet he did it. In fact, millions in our own nation are taking
those same risks right now even as I speak.
But those addicted to drugs are just pointing to a
problem every person has, the problem to which Jesus points. Jesus says.
Every human being finds themselves trapped in a lie, a lie that keeps
leading them to make wrong choice after wrong choice, a lie that leaves them
caught up in fears and insecurities that wreck their lives, a lie that even
wrecks the entire planet. And how do
you become free. Jesus tells you. The truth will make you free.
But what the heck is the truth Jesus is
talking about. Sure, it’s nice to say. The truth shall make you free. But what is truth? And here, if you look carefully, Jesus is
telling you. But before we can get
there, we first need to understand what it truly means to be free.
Freedom isn’t simply being able to do whatever you want to do. And if you think about it, you’d see how that definition doesn’t really make any sense. If that were true, then a fish should have the freedom to fly like a bird. But fishes don’t want that freedom at all. No what makes for freedom for that fish is having the freedom to be the fishiest fish possible. freedom simply means having the power to become more fully who you truly are. If you’re an oak seed, it means having the freedom to grow into the oakiest oak tree possible. And if you are a human being, it means having the freedom to grow into the most human human being possible.
And in the Bible, God tells you what that looks like. For God created everyone in God’s image. To be human is to be a mirror of God, to move deeper and deeper into reflecting in your life the wondrous beauty of God’s love and goodness. Freedom means having the freedom to do just that.
But here’s the problem, human beings look to find that beauty, that love, that goodness in all the wrong places. It’s why the Scottish writer Bruce Marshall said. “Every man who knocks on the door of a brothel is looking for God.” Everyone yearns for the same thing. Everyone yearns to live into who, in their deepest self, they truly want to be.
But did Shawn’s friend, David, want to be a drug addict? Is that who he truly wanted to be? No. Of course not. He wanted to love and be loved by his kids. He wanted to love and be loved by his wife. He wanted a life rich with friends, with work that blessed him and others, with all that makes for a rich and fulfilled life.
Everyone, whether they are conscious of it or not, is
living life with that same goal in mind.
The problem lies in that we don’t know how to get there. Evil continues to feed us the lie that we
will find that fulfillment in a substance or success or the approval of others
or whatever it might be. And sure those
things can be good. But they cannot be
the ultimate good. In fact, not only do
they not bring you the ultimate good. They hold you back from getting it. And in the end, you don’t even end up owning
whatever your particular desire might be.
In the end, the desire ends up owning you.
Why? They drive
you. And as they drive you, you live
with the underlying fear that if you don’t fulfill this desire, then somehow
your life will have failed at some deep level, you will never find the true fulfillment
you really seek. But this desire cannot
ever give you that. It is a dead end. It
may be good. But it’s not the ultimate
good. It’s just a means. It’s not the end.
The desires can even be religious ones. Jesus is, in fact, talking here to religious
people who wanted to follow him. But
Jesus told them that they had a wrong desire that drove them too, that
literally made them slaves. He said. Look, in a Roman household, a slave and a
son can seem in many ways the same. They
live in the same house. The head of the
house provides for them. They also work
for and obey him. But they are very
different. If the slave messes up, his
status can change like that. His status
depends on what he does, and how well he does it. And that makes it very uncertain. But the status of the son never changes. Whatever mistakes he makes he will always be
a son, no matter what.
Jesus is saying to these folks. Yes, you follow God. You even have a relationship with God, but
your god isn’t even really God. Your God
only accepts you if you’ve done what He expects. And if you don’t, then you’re cast out so
that the desire that drives you is to get this God to accept you. And you live
every day with the fear that maybe God doesn’t. And that binds you up just as much as anyone
driven by a desire for approval or success or money or whatever. That’s how people can grow up in a
religious environment, even a Christian one, and instead of finding freedom get
guilt and anxiety. They never
experienced the truth that Jesus is talking about here, the only truth that can
actually set you free.
What is that truth?
Who you need is not this false God who comes to you as a boss that will
boot you out of the house if you mess up.
No, the God that actually exists comes to you as a father, a loving
parent, who loves you period; no matter how badly you mess up. And the more you grasp that truth, the freer
you become. Why? You know who you are, a beloved child, one
whose place in her parents’ heart is always secure. And in that knowledge, in that truth, you
become free. You become free to become
the very being God created you to be, a being journeying deeper and deeper into
the wondrous love and goodness of this God.
And Jesus came to set you free from the lies, to not
only tell you the truth, but to actually become that truth, that truth come in
flesh and blood. So, do you understand
what that means? No one freely chooses evil. Evil has blinded them to the truth. Evil has bound them up with a lie. And they end up looking for the love they
need in all the wrong places.
And thus, hell exists to finally free people from
those lies. Hell exists to open their
eyes to the truth. Now that truth will
at first bring pain, pain at all the false choices they’ve made, how much hurt
and pain they caused themselves and others.
It will lead to weeping and gnashing of teeth. It will lead to a conscience that will burn
inside them, that will burn up the delusions and misplaced desires that so
wrecked their lives, their very souls. But
in that burning, they will become free, free to become the very people they
yearned to be all along. The truth will
have set them free.
And in that freedom, they will be free to go, to go
where they always yearned go anyway, to return to the source of all being and
life. In fact, the very word in Hebrew
for repent simply means that, return. Everyone
ultimately wants to return home, to their ultimate home in the beauty and love
of God. And God will not stop until God
frees everyone to make that journey.
That’s why in Jesus, God came. Jesus gave up his freedom to give you freedom.
Jesus gave up his home so you might have that home forever. In Jesus, God gave up who God was so that you can
become who you truly are. In Jesus, God descended into death so that he might
raise you into life, the life you yearn to have. And in the end, Jesus will use everything,
even hell itself, to set you free. For
if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.